Ain't NOTHING easy about Sunday morning...

Friday, October 22, 2004

So here's my problem.
This is a REAL problem. It's not a stab at false humility or a compliment-fishing...
Ready for the problem...?
I outdate myself.
I forget things about myself.
There's a verse in the Bible about a man who looks in the mirror, walks away and forgets who he is..
I'm that man.
I have scores of verses and scripts and short stories that I know I've written..
but I don't remember writing them.
It's like my dreams..
I dream things before they happen, but then I don't realize it until those things happen,
so it's not too terribly useful.
Back to the issue...
As a result I become horribly disdainful towards my own work..
If I can't even remember my own shniot, what makes anyone else?
Case in point, I can watch my own video work for inspiration.
You better believe it.
This one short called "Eve" tears me up EVERYTIME..
and it stars my sister, another close friend of mine, and my ex-girlfriend.
I don't remember making it, but the dialogue shocks me everytime, and it gives me the same sickening
almost repentant feeling...
Remember Sammy Jenkis, okay?
When I read my own writing, it feels like I'm teetering on the brink of some revelation that's meant for everyone but me.
When I read my own writing, I feel like I'm PRYING.
Like I'm nosy...
I remember seeing on AE Biography (when I was like 12) that one time Michaelangelo struck a statue on the knee and said: "Speak!"
It's kind of like that...
I'm not the one writing these things...
And it's not everything I write...but the best stuff is just out of this world.
Another thing is that when I write something, by the time someone esle sees it (if ever) it's OLD...not just in time, but in relevance. I may write something today, and by the time I show it to someone, I (along with all the cells in my body) have all I'm not the same person..."
Could this be a good thing?
James 1:23-24
Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

I'm a thief from forever.
Forever's thieved my peace
and whenever peace is thieved
forever feels released.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

It's a WRAP!

I found someplace that sells my SECOND favorite ice cream in the WORLD.
Trust me...get it as a malted shake.
I'm currently accepting love gifts...

Gifts of LOOOOOOVE!!!

I'm so ridiuclously excited about my book.
I feel blessed to write it, and excited to read it,
and excited for you when you read it.

I feel like I'm at work...
I feel like an eggbeater sitting in some eggs..
And I'm writing songs!
And since I don't write songs,
these songs are special to me.
I'm not forcing a thing.

I just feel like this work is an expression of my love.
And what a powerful love.
It's all coming to a head, and I'm excited.

I watched Eminem's video 'Just Lose It'
I wonder if anyone else appreciates it for what it is.
It is the number one watched video on AOL..
How can an honest man be condemned?

God has given me grace;
I'm TOTALLY FREAKIN JOE with falling in line...
It's like I can see the end, and it doesn't matter how I get there...

Gotta Love Narnia.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Napo Dyn.

So i've done it.
I've bootlegg'd Napsteez D.
Not for resale, of course, but it's still a feat.
I tossed it into a snazzy DSP menu with a full motion menu and the elevator music I used from Jangle.
Oh yeah, baby.

It's kinda good to be blogging again. I don't have to clog Sita's comment boxes with my random opinions.
I don't even remember why I stopped. Probably because of the Government, or because I was too busy teaching Tae Kwan Dizzy to the president's nephew.

I used to LOVE National Geographic.
It's lunch time.

I think I remember why I stopped.

Uh-Oh, Guys...
Blame Sita. She just makes it look so MARVY.