Ain't NOTHING easy about Sunday morning...

Tuesday, May 06, 2003

You know how some people actually get offended when you say the word "darn"?
There exist certain individuals who get seriously heated when they get warned on Instant Messenger.
What's that about? As if we all don't have six million three hundred ninety fourthousand seven hundred and eighty two screen names...
I squeezed a girl's hand in prayer once, and she YELPED AND SCREAMED HOLLERED right there in the whole circle of people.
She was serious. I felt so bad...I was only playing. Sheesh. Everyone looked at me like I was a monster. LOL
But come on, walk it off!
Ah well... guilt is alive and well. I'm not going to get into a battle of trying to justify myself; All I can say is "sheesh".
I hate when people tell me I 'go too far'. That is the mose condescending attitude. I hate that. I didn't take it to heart, but again, "sheesh" man.
First of all, to pass even a simple judgement like that is to elevate yourself to a position of never doing or having done so. And second of all,
THAT'S not going too you underestimate me?! I'm very creative! I can go MUCH farther! Count your blessings!
Okay I'm a bad man.
See? I knew I'd find a way to make Jesus shine!
Wow, now I'm really a bad man.
I'm just anxious.
There are so many spirits at work around me....seriously. It must be spiritual. People chill, and are fine all year long until "'s finals time!woooo..." then we get so anxious and forget how to freeking do dumb stuff... I know people cramming for intro to computer classes....question one: "Create, and save a word document, and label it with today's date" OH NO!!! What does she mean by date?! Do i put the date she created the test, or the date i'm taking it? But I'm pinoy! It's already tommorrow in Paranaque City!!! Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!"

I feel bad because I haven't been keeping up with my video equipment...I easily have $5,000 + dollars in video equipment collecting dust all semester. I can count the times I filmed an event and used Final Cut pro on one hand. Together. I hate Temple, and photoshop, and the whole School of Communications, and God help, me I don't know the man, but I'm mad at Mike K. for not getting me into his class next year...hate is evil man, and I'm dealing with it....
I must be in position.

You have no idea who I am.
I'm not living up to my potential.
I must be excellent.
No, really.
I'm greater than anxiety.
I haven't been bought so that I can be a slave to fear and uneasiness...and uncertainty...
it's real.


Awake from your dreamin/these demons/ will get you while you sleep/ providing false security in what yout think you need/ you've been deceived/ soul penitentiary/ you never get a chance to be the saint you meant to be...

now everybody scream.


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